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[29 Mar 2005|12:02am] |
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I'M AN AUNTTTT!
i am very super excited
i now have a nephew named ethan
he is 2 months early
i hope he's okay
i never update this thing.
wtf.
my sister got married. it was beautiful. i cried. ha.
school is hard. life is up and down.
i think i'm bipolar sometimes.
i have a new job.
i'm a terrible waitress.
but i love it.
i'm seeing billy idol next month.
maybe the dresden dolls and fob too.
i want to go to bamboozle.
i need to go to sleep.
ps my birthday is next week. holler.
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| it's a long way to richmond.... |
[23 Nov 2004|10:15am] |
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ha. i totally forgot to update for like....forever. what else is new.
i'm home in connecticut right now. meh. it wouldn't be so bad but my cousin is mad at me and i can't get my mind off of it which sucks.
i just went to shs this morning with gina and they made me leave. fuckers. oh well. i think i'll take this time to do my homework. it's needed.
i missed my train 3 times yesterday. 4 if you count my connecting one out of dc. mike and i caught up to it in ashland. ha. all these adventures are wearing me out. but alas i live the crazy life.
i've decided yet again that i give up on boys. for real. haha.
umm...i'm eating goldfish crackers and it's way to early to eat goldfish crackers. they taste weird.
i'm gonna go do homework. gina is picking me up at 2 i think.
bye!
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| the good, the bad, and the mess that is my life |
[05 Oct 2004|11:52pm] |
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I'M GOING TO BE AN AUNT!
jessica is pregnant and engaged. she wants to get married in january.
january is fucking cold in ct haha oh well i'm so fucking excited and happy for her.
i paid for my car today :-D
my tuition for the fall is all paid for
i'm broke but i get paid on wednesday but it'll only be for like $70 tho. fuckers
i have no idea what i want out of life next and it's very frustrating
i want some sort of male contact but that only leads to temporary satisfaction
i'm like....almost homesick and it fucking sucks
i have no friends here
i might get to see the deftones with two of my favorite people ever
i have to work tomorrow
it's gonna take another few months for my hair to be semi normal
i have a paper to write that i just can't do
i have far too many mental breakdowns and i don't know why
it's past my bedtime
goodnight kids <3
well there's a place inside my mind yea a place you'll never find there's a place inside my mind walk this way...
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| getting lost has never been so frequent |
[30 Sep 2004|08:09pm] |
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so things are very....bipolar? sunday i had a mental breakdown and just wanted to die. monday was kinda meh. not too much time to think about anything since i worked all day. tuesday i got an A- on my english paper and i was so fucking happy. things have been alright ever since. so basically....i make no sense at all.
i'm writing too much. even though i don't write enough. this has to be short and sweet. i need to go to bed. so....all in all....life is good. my parents still piss me off. i still have mental breakdowns that i can't comprehend but i think that i really did the right thing. this is all for the best. i'm helping myself and that's amazing.
i should be able to pay off my car tomorrow. that's fantastic. amazing. ect ect. have the house to myself this weekend again, except i'm sleeping at amanda's. not like i have any hot guys to come over anyway.
oh well.
next time there will be pictures. i have good ones.
goodnight <3
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| got me down, and now i'm only singing for my health... |
[22 Aug 2004|10:25am] |
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my life is coming together and falling apart at the same time. it makes no sense.
i'm in school. have a car. a cell phone. a job. possibly 2.
i have no friends. i'm really lonely. my mom's going back to rehab. i don't know where my little brother's going. i refuse to let him go to his father tho because he's insane. (i told my dad to take him. he's with michael now. which isn't a good environment....but my dad isn't really either. he needs to be away from all the alcohol and self hatred. and shaine too. god everything is so fucked up.) cait's parents are getting divorced. (they're like my other parents. i lived with them. i love them.) everything is falling apart. i don't understand it.
i'm not strong enough for all this. i can't just deal with it like always. i don't even know. i feel like one of these days i'm going to drown on my tears in my sleep.
8 years of therapy...lets make it 9. but home is so far away and i'm so very selfish.
i hate everything
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| unskinny bop bop all night and day... |
[10 Aug 2004|07:39pm] |
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last night was so good. i got some. molly got some. it was our last hurrah. we went out with a bang. but not literally....sorta haha
i'm going back to va beach 4 am thursday. i hope the ride isn't as brutal as last time. i'm excited for school. yay!
i <3 penis. i'm in a good mood. i was told i give an awesome bj and an insane hand job haha. nice. i guess i am talented.
for the first time in a long time i can say the last person i kissed was a boy, a cute boy at that. no offense molly haha.
i'm feelin it!
i'm done
<3333333
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| the thrill of the grill... |
[06 Jul 2004|09:10pm] |
on my way to virginia beach in 0 days 7 hours 19 minutes.
hollla
hit me up if you wanna do something
i'm gonna wanna go to nova alot but don't have the funds
18 minutes now
<333
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| gahhhh |
[06 May 2004|06:13pm] |
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oh man i never update. yes indeed, i suck at life.
virginia was awesome. left april 16th around 8-9am. went into union station. spent up until wednesday with the best people in the world. god i love you guys. then i went to kelly's. had to go to richmond tho because i missed my train. ooops. looked at the college. didn't go in. i make no sense haha. i like it there. i need friends there though because i'm gonna be lonely all by myself. came back on the 26th. awesomeness.
went to see hipv/allister/punchline with joe on the 28th. hipv wasn't there. so i played tetris for ass long. good times. got to meet jason. he's hot. holla haha.
stayed up all night last thursday. had to be in school at 4:30am on friday. brutal. ohio was pretty good. very dramatic. it always is though. not ohio but going places with 100+ people. the next time i travel by myself or with a small group of people i'm gonna be like "oh man..this is heaven".
blah blah blah
school is meh. i can't wait for it to be over. prom's in like 3 weeks. i have no date. that sucks. a lot. meh. oh well.
i need a job. anyone want to pay for my sex? didn't think so. i've also decided that i'm anti sex so that could be a problem.
ummm i have a lot of homework to do so i'm gonna bizounce.
holler at ya girl.
203 say what?
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
<3justi</cetner>
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| fuck youuuuu |
[31 Mar 2004|03:02pm] |
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listen up people
if i'm not your friend don't fucking invite yourself to my party.
if i don't like you don't fucking invite people to my party, especially people i don't know or like.
if you want to come to the party ask; if you're my friend you can probably come..if i don't know you...fuck off.
caity, molly, and i have say in who comes. you don't. ha.
if you are unsure of your invitation status please, in the words of bill nye, consider the following:
are we even friends? are you aware that i don't do drugs or get fucked up? if this party were to be held at my house would you be invited?
this party is to celebrate my life it's not just an excuse to get fucked up. people need to get fucking lives and learn some respect.
thank you caitis for throwing a party for me. tomorrow i'm gonna turn into a megabitch if this shit is still goin on.
have a nice day, douchebags.
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| baby look at us now.. |
[28 Mar 2004|11:19pm] |
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i don't have much to say. this week is going to be pretty good i think. i go in at 10:30 tomorrow. awesome. i probably should have finished my health paper today. but i woke up at 3pm. it was a lazy day.
every once in a while i get crazed. i want cock bad right now haha. it's so sad. it'll work out eventually. i kind of regret taking the asexulity 101 seminar. i feel like my life is over in a way haha. oh well.
my birthday is on sunday. i'll be 18. i'm very excited. although, i think the day itself is going to suck. but, it's bringing me closer to getting out of here. and although i'm very scared of the future i embrace what it will bring. i'm so sick of being here. oh well oh well oh well.
i don't know what else to write. life is boring. birthday, brand new, jersey, virginia, home, ohio - all coming up, very fast. stressful. meh. it'll work out. it has to. haha.
"you don't know anyone except the people you already know!" - caitis
http://www.purevolume.com/commoneffect/music
have a good day
<3justi
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| if i'm just bad news then you're a liar |
[19 Mar 2004|11:13am] |
i'm not even listening to that song. it's just stuck in my head.
snow day. meh. i guess it's not so bad. graduation date is set. can't fuck with april vacation. even if they do i won't go. so i win i suppose. except i need to work on the english project. boo.
i have to pee. but i'm lazy. meh
i want set plans. i need to start saving money. i have been. where does it all go? no idea. i suck at life.
i've realized i'm incapable of loving someone. or something like that. it's strange. i don't understand myself. maybe maria knows. who knows.
i don't know what i'm talking about.
hipv is playing webster on the 28th. who wants to take me? haha
i'm out of here.
have a good day.
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
<3justi
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| my leg says..."i suck dick" |
[04 Mar 2004|11:06pm] |
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isn't that exciting? the joys of doing nothing in school. good times. - the pittstains
i scared the canadian away today. i'm never getting into his pants. i need to come to terms with that. haha. nothing works out for me. i'm lonely :-/
i'm tired too. just waiting for eric to get on to say goodnight. tomorrow is friday, thank god. i think i'm gonna pass out as soon as i get home. for i must babysit for like 6 hours. i hope the children worship me. 1 does haha.
got my fob/mest/dynamiteboy/matchbookromance tickets today. i have the 1st ticket. it literally says 1 on it. haha i win. i wanted 104 tho. i miss 104. *sniff* cait should take that one.
my arm itches. i hope this marker comes off my leg soon. i wanted to wear my pink capris tomorrow. but i'd get in trouble. and everyone would know my secret. haha.
joe needs to stop ignoring me haha. HIIIII JOE!
ummm. i hung out with jonas today. he played with my sewing machine. then fixed his boots. how gangster. jayme came over yesterday. he wasn't in school today. i must have worn him out. except i didn't do anything haha. honestly. i get none. i lose.
it's exactly 1 month until i'm legal. in 1 month i can legally have sexual relations with anyone 16 and over. gets you excited doesn't it? it does for me haha. ben, envy and i are gonna go to the strip club. i say bring brand new. but who knows what will happen.
i'm gonna stop babbling. eric is on. i want in his pants. that's my story. the end. goodbye.
http://www.myspace.com <--join and be my friend. i'm bored.
sleep well!
<3justi
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[31 Jan 2004|11:34pm] |
joe has an lj now. HIIIII JOEE!
i've been having real bad headaches lately. i think i'm dying. sometimes i wish i was because this pain is awful and i have no tylenol.
well actually i do. but i can't take it because i can't swallow pills. in the words of krisanne i'm "not a real woman" yeah....where has she been? hahaha
uhhh why am i writing a lot? i dunno. i think i'm overheating. i have like 4 shirts on. i should do something about that before i cook. i wonder what a rib would taste like..cait thought i was insane when i mentioned eating my leg. i am a strange child at times. haha.
oooo MORE SHOWS!
FEB 27th
HIDDEN IN PLAIN VIEWWWWW
wallingford, ct
knights of columbus hall
anddddd
APRIL 15th
BRAND FUCKING NEWWW!
omgomgomgomg. i need money. i have $60 to my name. $50 of which is going to shows already. anyone wanna lend me some? haha.
uhhh. i just wrote a lot. wow. sorryyy.
hmm go to my site
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
have a good weekend!
-justi
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| .....shows..... |
[24 Jan 2004|01:49am] |
here are some shows i need to go to.
FEB15
Something Corporate
*possibly have a ride with cait*
FEB28
LEVEL 27 FEST featuring:
tHrOnE
Look West, Base 2, Downward Limit, Monty's Fan Club, and C4
*possibly have a ride with molly*
MAR6
Mest, Fall Out Boy, Matchbox Romance, Dynamite Boy
*possibly have a ride with cait*
any of you kids goin to these shows?
holla at me.
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
(just went over 4,000 hits, yay!)
have a nice weekend.
<3justi
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| happy new year....indeed... |
[04 Jan 2004|03:55pm] |
last sunday i took a train down to virginia. stayed with my friend emma all week. molly too. it was the most awesome week of my life. i had the best new years ever. it was great starting the new year off with such awesome people. i love everyone.
i need to get my pics developed. and put them on my site. they will be fun.
i love my boys. you should too.
http://www.commoneffect.com
have a good day.
-justi
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| do i talk too much? |
[26 Dec 2003|03:44pm] |
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i'm sooo lazy. i decided to update since i finally got some comments. holla.
went to see life won't wait (dale & ant's band) play on saturday with outlet and lots of people. it was good. sucked at first cuz people were douches. but at the end it was good. mostly cuz molly came to see me aww <33 molly <33
we may or may not be spending another vacation together. i hope so. i <3 mizzy.
pictures from the show are on the site
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
christmas came and went. i got what i wanted most. and what i actually needed too. need to head off to the stores soon to return what i don't need or want tho.
been driving more. almost hit 2 bmw's. i winn! yay. i'm very very spazzy. i don't know why. it's been like this for a couple weeks. i have problems. yepp.
yds @ oddfellas tonight. should be good. my friend joe might come and visit me. aw yea. cute boys = fun times.
right now i'm very much looking forward to cookies and ebola. no one has any idea how much.
i'm freezing and hungry. so i'm gonna go. i have nothing more to say except we lost that game. it sucked haha. but it was funnn x 1985045840. the end.
http://www.yourdaystrong.net
happy holidays!
-justi
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| it's up to youuuu |
[14 Nov 2003|08:32pm] |
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i'm such a lazyass when it comes to updating this. i suck haha.
hmm lets see. school is okay. powderpuff practice is officially over. got my jersey. #69. monday is our game. (7pm @ bunnell) i play defensive left side linebacker. sometimes right too tho. it's awesome. i'm a captain too. that's even more awesome.
i went to the alkaline trio/reggie and the full effect/from autumn to ashes/no motiv show last thursday. i had an awesome time. i saw like 12 of my friends i don't see often. had some smelly sweaty goodtimes.
other than that i haven't been doing much. i need to update my website. i gave this name some moderation powers for my communities. cool shit.
that's all i have to say.
http://www.hiddeninplainview.com
go there. their new cd came out on tuesday. go buy it.
have a good weekend and come watch me play football
-justi
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| hello hello |
[27 Oct 2003|10:08pm] |
i never update. i'm sorry! <3333
life is boring. i saw gc/mest/soco last friday. it was goood. i have the pics on my site now. go look at them. i need to go to more shows. i lack money like whoa tho. it suckss.
i started powderpuff football today. go red devils! haha
i'm thinking about colleges. molly thinks i should go to nova with her and get an apartment. sounds good to me. what do you think?
i have to go. i'm tired and smell.
http://nowhookitup.tripod.com
take care!
-justi
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